I love you so much. From my birth I have been with you. I always slept in between you and Perijappa. You always said at night times “stop talking and sleep”, but then you enjoyed the conversation. If you fall in sleep, I kept waking you up and forced you to listen. I am missing you sleeping next to me and share your memories. I know most of your stories and secrets and I can still hear you laughing. You always said I am your first child and after carrying me you become Mathanki. You gave me a sister to play and to look after. I was inspired of you being akka and tried to be like you. You always said that Mathanki is like Sitti and I am like you. I will promise you I will be always with Mathanki. Don’t worry about your daughter, we are here. You taught us Tamil, how to safe money, how to Reaktion, how to organise and how to be prepared. You had always everything. I am missing the sound of your keys. Whenever I said come, you said “varen tirappu edutukondu”. Can you remember our last long walk from your home till my home. You had dizziness and you worried That you gonna fall. But I said I will be there for you, you believed in me and walked with me. If I told you something, you always listened to me. How many tea’s in your blue cups and cakes we shared? How often did you pick up my kids from school? Can you remember teaching Seyjo Tamil? You got frustrated with him, because He tortured you to make him food. Did you finished your blouse, which you tried to Stich it for months? You said you will finish it... did you gave up? Did you just gave up all the battle? It was too early... hope you arrived at your final destination and met your dad and Perijappa. Love you a lot