Dear appama, I still don’t want to believe it. Just 3 days ago before all this, we were talking… and now you’re gone. How is that even possible? It doesn’t feel real. I keep waiting for someone to say it was a mistake. That you’re still there. Still smiling. Still ready to pick up the phone. I wish I talked to you more. I wish I told you how much I love you. I wish I could’ve seen you again, even just one last time. I know you are in France and I’m here in Canada, but I always thought we’ll have more time. I wish you could’ve been here with us. I wish things were different. You were such a strong, loving person. Even though we believed in different things, i know your heart was full of goodness. And i believe with all my heart that you’re at peace now. God bless you…i believe God is holding you now and you’re finally resting, without pain, without worries. Romans 8:38–39: For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers… will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord