கண்ணீர் அஞ்சலி
பிராத்திக்கின்றோம்
When your mother who carried you for nine months, and loved you like no other, is no more, it feels like part of you has been taken from you.
I knew it was coming. I knew it was time for her to go. But the pain of losing our Amma is much like a stabbing pain in the heart, regardless. As I sat in my home, in Toronto, Canada and her loss sunk in, a sense of relief came over me. I think my mother's body was giving up on her. That is what the doctors believed. It was my belief too. The time had come for her to go.
I was blessed in that I was able to tell Amma I love her, in her ear, as she lay in hospital, with my brother Manu and sister Uttarai by her bedside. And before I knew it, like a person Inspired, I was chanting the Mahāmrityunjaya Mantra to her through Facetime - I was in fact invoking, in Sanskrit, the highest divine power there is, through the phone - the invocation to Lord Siva in essense reads like this: "Lift me - from darkness to light, from bondage to liberation, from death to immortality." Looking back that was indeed a profound moment for me.
Incredibly, I later saw Amma breathe her last - thanks to my sister, Uttarai - It so happened, just as Amma was breathing her last, my sister called on the phone; she was elated Amma had opened her eyes and looked at her. It was divine will that I was there in my Amma's final moments. I am ever grateful to my sister for what she did. I am blown away that I would be so blessed; I saw for myself, yet again, God's grace and compassion in
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Dear Usha. Our Deepest Sympathies and Heartfelt Condolences to you and your family. Please remember that for every person we lose on this earth, the Heavens gain an Angel.